um. i'm scared

i'm scared i might not be able to look at him anymore. justin i mean. every time i look at him, i miss him. at recess today i qas all happy.. until i saw him. he looked so happy. and i gues i was sad becuz i couldnt be happy with him. i couldnt be by his side anymore. i just miss him. this time as my boi friend. not just as m friends. i miss his hugs. i miss him by my side when i needed someone to make me feel better again. now this is my question. what do you do when the one who broke your heart is the only one that can fix it? he broke my heart by tryin to get away from it. all i ever need is to be where he is. i always want to be by his side! he is the one that makes me want to got o schoool everyday! becuz i know i will be able to see him again! but lately, it seemslike he is avoiding me, and he is going back to bree. he was just using me to get to her. and the worst part is that i knew this was going to hapen, but he tripped me and i fell for him anyways. what am i going to do! in the mornings, i want to run to skool cuz i can only hope that he will come back and say he loves me again. i miss him.. and now i thik i love him. i used to just reallyv like him. but now i really do love him, and i cant ever give up on someone that i cant go one day with out thinking about! i will FIGHT for him! i luv him and i wont let him go!