justin

k. so my last boi friend got mad at me because i expected him to spend every moment he had with me. which was wrong, and i know that now. thats why i am saying this. i know that expecting someone to give up all their time for you is obnoctious, but when it is ur boi friend, you just want them to be near you all the time. and thats how i am about justin. for the last week or so, he would always walk with me after school and we would have fun you know. it was very amausing! then friday and today after school, he was no where to be found. no where. and it has been killing me cuz he is supposed to stay at least an arms lenght away from me at all times! becuase of uor stupid principal! i hate her! i am so glad we get rid of her next year! she is so mean! she thinks guys and girls cant mess around and be friends! itz retarted! so anyways he usually at least comes and hangs with me and myt friend bree. but lately he plays basketball with all the other jocks. ugh. but have learned since my last boi friend. i need to let him be. so now it seems that time trudges by. like one second is a day. a minute a week. at firrt i was afraid to meet him. when i met him, i was afraid to be near him. when i was near him, i was afraid to love him. and now that i love him... i am afraid to lose him. i think thats why i am always wanting to be with him. not just becasue he is fun to be aroun, but becasue i am scared. i am scared someone else will be in his arms. i'm afraid his heart will belong to someone else. i am afraid of someone taking my place. i think i love him so much that if he is not near me, i feel empty inside. like karinna drew. he is my drug and i am addicted. so now the question is, do i confront him about this and tell him that i love him so much? or do i lay low and let my heart wonder for a time? these are the questions that make me love him even more