i think he is moving.....

today after school, justin told me he was moving. i thought to myself that maybe he was just lying to me to see my reaction... but i'm not sure. i hope so.sure i wil be humiliated... but at least i would be able to be with the one i love. i really do love him now. and he said he would hang with me tuesday, wednesday, and thursady. fun! but i dont wanna leave my friends...... i think they wil understand. i hope so anyways. well, what if he does move? i think i will just crawl in a dark hole, all a lone with just me, and sit and think about how much he changed my life. and he said he might go to the same school, but he might not. and lets face it, i am almost dying right NOW becuse he went a whole week without saying hardly anything to me. but if he moves, i wont see him, or hear him probably ever again. at first i was afraid to meet him. once i met him, i was afraid to talk to him. once i talked to him, i was afraid to like him. once i liked him, i was afraid to love him.a nd now that i love him, i'm only afraid of losing him...... i'm scared becuase i dont want anyone else in his arms. i dont want anyone else to have his heart. i'm scared becuz... i dont want anyone else to take my place... the place that gives me a reason to wake up int he morning.... the place that makes me his girlfriend. i have fallen for someone that catched me at first.. but is starting to drop me slowly. what happens if he drops me for goood. what if he wont remember me. what if he completely moves on while i stay behind in a place where i dont feel like i belong cuz he is not with me? i cant lose him....... i love him too much....