he's... gone

i let him slip away. he thinks i hate him.. and he is gone.he slipped away like sand streaming through my fingers. i luved him... or at least really liked him. what am i supposed to do now? he was my life. the only reason i didnt mind waking up in the morning is becuz when i did wake up.. i knew i would be able to see him again. but now i probably wont ever see him until high school. thats like 5 ears away. i luv him too much. i cant wait for 5 years. but i luv him, and i want the best for him... whether it includes me or not. i ahve to give up. and now that i have... he is gone.. and i didnt even get to say gooodbye..... -cry cry cry cry cry-