OMG

OMFG!!!! he is starting to get to me again! i went for like a month with out liking him. probably cuz he didnt talk to me. now that he has started flirting with me and kissed me on the cheek, i'm kinda confuzzled on what to think here! he says he likes me, then he acts like he is over me, now he says he likes or luvs me again. he is such a wierd (yet oddly kute) boy. and thast the other thing. i didnt used to think justin was kute. i just liked him cuz i liked him. but now everyday he starts looking even kuter to me. and every time i look into his gorgeous blue-green eyes, itz like i travle farther than just his eyes. it seems that i look at his heart too. and i start to fall even MORE in luv wit him! see what i have to go thru! but at least right now itz not too bad and i can still focas on my dreamy ryker! well thats a whole other novel in itself! so i am going to say goodbye before i start chapter! bye!

um. i'm scared

i'm scared i might not be able to look at him anymore. justin i mean. every time i look at him, i miss him. at recess today i qas all happy.. until i saw him. he looked so happy. and i gues i was sad becuz i couldnt be happy with him. i couldnt be by his side anymore. i just miss him. this time as my boi friend. not just as m friends. i miss his hugs. i miss him by my side when i needed someone to make me feel better again. now this is my question. what do you do when the one who broke your heart is the only one that can fix it? he broke my heart by tryin to get away from it. all i ever need is to be where he is. i always want to be by his side! he is the one that makes me want to got o schoool everyday! becuz i know i will be able to see him again! but lately, it seemslike he is avoiding me, and he is going back to bree. he was just using me to get to her. and the worst part is that i knew this was going to hapen, but he tripped me and i fell for him anyways. what am i going to do! in the mornings, i want to run to skool cuz i can only hope that he will come back and say he loves me again. i miss him.. and now i thik i love him. i used to just reallyv like him. but now i really do love him, and i cant ever give up on someone that i cant go one day with out thinking about! i will FIGHT for him! i luv him and i wont let him go!